"..be faithful weary pilgrim,
the morning you will see..
lift up your cross and follow close to me.."

Singing in halts..

 Tear-filled eyes.. 

 I plod my way down the mountain.

This is just the beginning of God's call to servant hood.

Heartbroken, I didn't think twice to retreat...

Away from the crowd and all the noise..

Needed to, and have to..

Thing is, I couldn't be fully myself while ministering..

The weight of self-denial starts to wear me down..

It sucks when you're composed and clear-headed in public,
but can't restrain your own emotions in private.

Refusing self-vindication, hard as it is, isn't that big of a sacrifice

compared with what was done in the Calvary.

However, it's healthy to be away for some time..

..away with Him in secret..

.. in a place where you could just freely cry

 and pour your heart out.

It's alright...

..just be yourself now..

He listens..

He knows..

Missing...

...my childhood days. So simple. So carefree.

Once upon a time, there was a little girl who didn't want to grow up and get old. 

Air castles were built, and she explored many magical worlds.

When hurt, she finds refuge in the company of her secret friends.

And with her pen, she created printed pictures of life—both the beautiful and the ugly. 

Once upon a time, there was a young girl who was naive,
 but didn't want whatever innocence she had left disturbed. 
When someone tries to pump her budding emotions out,

She'd run like a gazelle and hide.

 

Once upon a time, there was a blossoming girl left in the open. 
She desperately sought protection from anyone who'd care.

 

Once upon a time, menfolk obliviously broke her heart.

Obsessed with their own feelings , they forgot hers.
(It's hard & painful when they want her to be someone she can never be.)

 

 

Once upon a time, there was a flourishing girl who was caught in the intersections of life.

Well-meaning people attempted to define her life and future being. 
There'd be times she'd want to cover her ears from all the voices, 
but she knew that as long as she was breathing, they wouldn't go away.

 

 

Once upon a time, there was a girl drifting into uncertainty. 
She ought to be like this, or that, and confusion clouded her. 
In this ridiculous mess, the Man drew her out. 
In Him she found who she really was.

 

Finally, her heart came home..

Him- her glorious end.

(PP)

  " Be ye followers of me, even as I also am of Christ. "

 1 Corinthians 11:1

Follow me...
I believe that means to see what God has done and is doing in my life. You'll still see many imperfections, but He'll surely polish all those. After you have set your eyes on this one handiwork of His, look at Him - my Maker and Designer Who is consistently doing a work in my life.

...become the woman I see in Your eyes.

..not what men thought of me..

..not what well-meaning people expect me to be..

Lord, I just want to be defined by You.

Reminiscing the times I've wandered around and tried hard to ditch the 'stigma of close association' with You only to end up in Your embrace-ever accepting and forgiving and understanding.

Sudden rain showers!!!

"Please stop it!!!"

Seeing your mischievous smile, I know You won’t heed my plea.

My eyes quickly surveyed the surrounding for a shelter but found none.

The ever persistent me attempted to run but You held me.

“I’ll be drenched!” was my hopeless appeal.

You turned me around to face You.

“Shhh..Everything’s alright. I’m here. Stay where I AM.“

Those words were enough to make me feel at peace.

Finally, a smile parted my lips.

“What’s the point of hiding from the rain when you have just been invited to be soaked in happiness?”

(PP)



When the  rain comes, You will....

You wouldn't understand God’s love through definitions no matter how theologically they are explained. The only way is to know the Person – Jesus –Who is ‘LOVE’ Himself.

 

(PP)

But let him that glorieth glory in this, that he understandeth and knoweth me, that I am the LORD which exercise lovingkindness, judgment, and righteousness, in the earth: for in these things I delight, saith the LORD. 

 Jeremiah 9:24

   And I will give them an heart to know me, that I am the LORD: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God: for they shall return unto me with their whole heart.

 Jeremiah 24:7

  (PP: Personal Photo)

My Prince,

I used to be afraid
of falling despite the many times I fell. However, as You reveal more of
Yourself to me, I discovered I no longer fear failures and frequent halts in my
life’s journey. Some people may nonchalantly drop me from their lives, yet You
would be there to catch me. And I will be comforted again – in Your arms.

   Then shall ye call upon
me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you.

Jeremiah 29:12

( PP: Personal Photo)

Spiritual discipline 1: <1 Cor. 6:12>

Don't let anything,(even good things)other than the Holy Spirit of God control you.

Spiritual discipline 2:<Matt. 6:7-13>

Worshipers of different Eastern religions pray that they'll be blessed and to have peace. How do your prayers differ from them?

Spiritual Discipline 3: <Luke 10:38-42>

Busyness in the ministry doesn't equate with godliness, nor does it count toward your personal communion with God.

Spiritual Discipline 4, Psalm 78: 35–37

 God isn't pleased with how much we've done in the ministry, but how much we've loved. How much of your work was done by a heart in love with Jesus Christ?

Spiritual Discipline 5

Though you say it with your mouth, you don't really believe you are weak when there's no daily demonstration of dependence that you refuse to move an inch unless you've met first with God in the Word and in prayer. 

Spiritual Discipline 6: 

Call not yourself a good Christian when you can't even act Christlike as a parent, child, sister, or brother before those who see your life at home.

Spiritual Discipline 7:

Be careful not to depend on books or men for your knowledge of God. No Christian has secondhand knowledge of Christ; only firsthand.

Spiritual Discipline 8:

Be careful not to attribute all things as works of the Holy Spirit. Test everything in the Word.

Spiritual Discipline 9: 

Once you've known the beauty and sweetness of an intimacy with Christ, you will never settle for the spiritual emptiness of a complacent relationship with Him

(List would be updated as I progress in my walk with Jesus.)

How could You just be pleased to lavish all that You are in me when, in reality, there's little of me that is spent for You? This, leaves me totally dumbfounded!

( picture from tumblr)

My greatest feat O Lord,

is to KNOW You 

and to discover how much You love me.

(photo from tumblr)

 The LORD hath appeared of old unto me, saying, 

Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: 

therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.
 Jer_31:3

 Doubtless, we were
created for one specific love.  

Not the counterfeit kind that our fickle
emotions periodically produce. 

It’s a Love that is not ours. 

The love, that is
only of God.