A Battle in my Mind

                        

When God prolongs an answer to our prayers, the enemy would buffet you with doubts regarding the Lord's character. Oftentimes, with me, he uses scriptures to justify complacency over praying for unsaved souls.  Admittedly, I don't have the outright boldness to rebuke the devil of his lies like most dynamic Christians. Helpless, I  can only run to my heavenly Father where I can pour my heart out. Following is an
excerpt from my journal dated 1/8/12:                                                                                                      (photo from tumblr)

Father,

Here, I am waiting. I can't add the words 'until now' because I have not always been 'waiting' or to be precise, 'expecting,' but I am waiting O Lord. I've been praying for the salvation of my loved ones, especially my parents. When, dear Father, will You have mercy on them? When will You draw them to Your saving knowledge? I know Lord that You do things in Your own perfect time. I implore You, dear God. If my being Your child is not enough reason for my prayers to be granted, do it for the sake of the one who selflessly and lovingly died on the cross for the world. Be please Lord to include my family among Your elects. Forbid that Satan would use my shortcomings to repel them from You. I'm getting myself out of the way, letting Jesus come forth. Open their eyes Lord that they may see, and to look unto the face of the perfect Lover. Silence also Lord the whispers from the devil not to be hopeful in regard to the souls of the people You gave me to love. Refuting the wiles of the adversary, You put me into the remembrance of Your Words.

" If God is with you, then why is He not saving your parents despite doing your part of witnessing and  praying for them?"

Father, You said in Your Word that;

a. Your thoughts of me are of peace, and not evil, to give me an expected end ( Jeremiah 29:11)

b. That when I call on You in prayer, You will hearken unto me. ( Jeremiah 29:12)

c. That for every one that asks receives ( Matthew 7:8)

" Your parents may not be among those whom God had chosen to be saved. Remember? He creates some to honor, and some to dishonor."

Lord, the Scriptures say that You loved the world so much to give Your most precious possession, Jesus, Your Son( John 3:16). Father, You also said on Ezekiel 18:23 that You find no pleasure over the death of sinners, and that You want them to find life in You when they repent of their sins.

All I can hold onto are Your promises. I beg You...Oh please dear Lord.....